I am confused...
The further they went, the more they could feel the world changing, or may be it was them.
This is a quote from MotorCycle Diaries. Whenever you see the world changing, it isn't the world but it is you. But I didn't feel the world changing but I feel that I am changing. I don't know whether it's true or not, right or wrong but it is happening. Nobody knows the reason............ May be I am lying............. or I am confused.
When I look back, I feel that most part of my life is influenced by someone else. In this whole 24 years I can pinpoint someone how was influencing me. Now I couldn't find that person. It looks like almost everybody is influencing me. Or is it a period where I am looking for a person or I already found a person but could see more influential persons :). If being influenced is a case with me, then it is fine. But I doubt other way round. I could see lot of people is having some ideal and always trying to adapt the character, then there is something basically wrong in the make of mankind. Ok, I decided to traverse the tree. Whom I am following, and who he is following and backwards. To my surprise it is not a tree, instead it is a graph (please tolerate the computer related terms :). To be clearer, every other person is following some character of someone else. Trying to adjust himself to become more successful or comfort by following a path that is adopted by someone. So instead of adjusting with the nature, we are trying to adjust and adopt within ourselves. Here is where Darwinism is not fitting, or is it the evolution ends with our race, or is it a place a new kind of evolution starts, I am confused.
Whenever I got enthralled by nature, beauty or excellence, I am losing my consciousness. What I meant by losing consciousness is, I know I am here and doing something and I am happy. But on the other hand I don't want to do something else which is essential. This came into my mind because a friend of mine wanted to be conscious always. Is it possible? To some extent we are unconscious always. So my thoughts went into consciousness. Like every other science students, it tried to define consciousness. Shortest possible root is to Google for the definition. It gave me couple of definitions and the interesting one is its Buddhist form of definition. Explanation gave a feeling that, consciousness is something like attaching to something. In the sense, if a person is conscious he will be attached to the external happenings or awareness to the external happenings. But as per the same Buddhist philosophy, one need to detach himself from everything consciously. I don't understand that part :). Ok, coming back to my thoughts, So is it like unconsciousness is part of life. Do we need to be conscious to enjoy that moment or can we enjoy the same moment by being unconscious. So what is enjoyment? I am confused :)
The further they went, the more they could feel the world changing, or may be it was them.
This is a quote from MotorCycle Diaries. Whenever you see the world changing, it isn't the world but it is you. But I didn't feel the world changing but I feel that I am changing. I don't know whether it's true or not, right or wrong but it is happening. Nobody knows the reason............ May be I am lying............. or I am confused.
When I look back, I feel that most part of my life is influenced by someone else. In this whole 24 years I can pinpoint someone how was influencing me. Now I couldn't find that person. It looks like almost everybody is influencing me. Or is it a period where I am looking for a person or I already found a person but could see more influential persons :). If being influenced is a case with me, then it is fine. But I doubt other way round. I could see lot of people is having some ideal and always trying to adapt the character, then there is something basically wrong in the make of mankind. Ok, I decided to traverse the tree. Whom I am following, and who he is following and backwards. To my surprise it is not a tree, instead it is a graph (please tolerate the computer related terms :). To be clearer, every other person is following some character of someone else. Trying to adjust himself to become more successful or comfort by following a path that is adopted by someone. So instead of adjusting with the nature, we are trying to adjust and adopt within ourselves. Here is where Darwinism is not fitting, or is it the evolution ends with our race, or is it a place a new kind of evolution starts, I am confused.
Whenever I got enthralled by nature, beauty or excellence, I am losing my consciousness. What I meant by losing consciousness is, I know I am here and doing something and I am happy. But on the other hand I don't want to do something else which is essential. This came into my mind because a friend of mine wanted to be conscious always. Is it possible? To some extent we are unconscious always. So my thoughts went into consciousness. Like every other science students, it tried to define consciousness. Shortest possible root is to Google for the definition. It gave me couple of definitions and the interesting one is its Buddhist form of definition. Explanation gave a feeling that, consciousness is something like attaching to something. In the sense, if a person is conscious he will be attached to the external happenings or awareness to the external happenings. But as per the same Buddhist philosophy, one need to detach himself from everything consciously. I don't understand that part :). Ok, coming back to my thoughts, So is it like unconsciousness is part of life. Do we need to be conscious to enjoy that moment or can we enjoy the same moment by being unconscious. So what is enjoyment? I am confused :)
Sri Sri Poojya Sri Ragupathy Baabaji Namahaa.. :)
ReplyDeleteenna sir vera vela edhuvum illaya? :)
ReplyDeleteMy consciousness feels that the enjoyment can be there when we are both conscious and unconscious and we should enjoy those independently without converging both. :)
ReplyDeleteAfter having five larges of Bacardi if you remember that you have to take your key when you lock the house that is consciousness.
ReplyDeleteIf you forget that you are outside the house and start dancing that is unconsciousness.
Great Narration of your feelings.
ReplyDeleteReading the book "The Power of Subconscious Mind" by Joseph Murphy will help you a bit :-)